Tuesday, November 23, 2010

The Emotional Anatomy of the Jacket

The Emotional Anatomy of the Jacket

© Faye Rayos

There are three compartments of a Jacket:

The longitudinal sockets for arms

-right and left,

The base of the Hood (if any) and,

The outside pockets (if prevalent at all).

Each part bears significance,

Mystery and modest superficiality.

Yet,

The whole of the parts give but one simple definition-

That is to mystify the beholder with a deceitful warmth and comfort

Which plagues both day and night and heat and rain.

For with long sleeves that shadow the hands,

Leave no fingers to trace the wrong undone and the right closed in a fist,

Feeling nothing but the pressure of the fingers in the palm as it

Tightens the grip of the truth of the lines of life mapped out in the palm’s skin.

In the winter, the hands quiver and shake still ungloved,

Left only with the ease of the cloth of the garment’s sleeve.

Numbing the sense of touch,

Unfeeling the sensitivity and the prick of the ice on each fingertip,

That once weave and touched lives with joyful memories.

But only memories are to be left,

And these that are to be left are left unspoken, undermined and still,

Just memories.

Virtue still holds true in the pulse felt on the wrist.

The pulse is virtue to the beheld himself the longing to be set free and be true.

‘tis a disappointing feat to be lost in himself for trust or no trust,

He cannot decide.

And what of rain which singlets of water gently soothes in the piercing of dew through skin?

It is the garment’s mantle which now then shields our head, particularly our face,

Our face is roofed over by the shade of the hood,

In its best effort to enclose the cold sighing and tears of nature.

Same happens through with Day,

As sunlight encapsulates our entirety.

Withering the natural color of our skin or discoloring what is to be what was.

True Enough,

The hood,

hides our senses,

It blinds, it deafens, it nulls.

So who is to say what is true?

When one piece of garment trusted for protection,

Could break so much of its duty and loyalty in the eyes of the beheld and beholder?

When it does nothing but deceive?

What does it mean to be deceived anyway?

When what you thought was protection could all just be burnt or ripped or faded in time?

Will you pick up the patches and create a new suit?

Or will you use what is left behind to make a rag?

Soggy, old, dirty, used.

Beneath it all,

What matters most is that the garment knows of what it’s doing.

It does not leave its master, it is quite the contrary actually.

It is the master-beheld and beholder- that drags it around,

Washes it until it withers its color,

Testing its patience and strength by tugging and pulling it to fit our frames.

Still, who is to say what is truly right?

None of us are really able.

But, a thought must ponder for all,

As long as the Jacket has an opening and closing,

it doesn’t matter….

What it looks like,

How it is worn,

or,

When it is worn.

What matters most is that it is kept.

Used well,

Understood,

Loved,

Appreciated.

And in cases that the jacket is tightly embraced in our bodice,

As long as there’s a zipper that holds it in,

We can be assured that it will never be forever dark, empty, and closed.

And the side pockets?

Well let’s just say,

If the hands get tired of the heat and cold,

Dust and rain,

The side pockets will always be there to offer its comfort,

And serve as a catcher to its downfall.

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Gross Infallibility

Gross Infallibility

©LadyW./fayerayos

10/21/10

What is Justice to the Blind?

Perfection exists only in the eyes of the seemingly perfect.

Unblemished curtails taste only the glory of the charlatan,

Feasting in gluttonous amounts of pride and one-sidedness,

Pushing the consumed morsels down into one’s throat with-

Cups of blood collected and tears drawn from the innocent.

The wicked sees no failure,

But the glory of others into their eyes is Sin.

Mortality is high when stakes do not favor their ploy.

They are the rule,

We are the subjects……….

Friday, November 19, 2010

NEED A RIDE HOME? JUST WEAR SKIRTS.

PUBLIC TRANSPORTATION AND THE CODE OF ETHICS

Here’s another one of my rants but unlike my usual blabber about injustice and whatnot, this could actually serve as an eye opener or better yet reminder to our (mis)trusted taxi drivers.

The story that sprang this post happened last night when my sister fetched me from my university and we were looking for a ride home (no, I will not specify the place for safety reasons). The ideal mode of transportation at that hour was of course to take a cab. I mean, I understand that its rush hour and its Friday for crying out loud and at that very moment people are naturally thinking of dinner because of the long hours of work/study (believe me, BioOrg class was not a good one for me that night…) and it’s only natural that most cabs are already filled with passengers but hey, when you see an empty taxi after waiting for N-minutes to an hour or so and the cab actually stops in front of you, you’d get this giddy feeling of relief and content but that just couldn’t be the situation for us. It was worse enough that some damn girls in their skirts claim that the cab that we called were theirs and they were mocking us when we were already inside the taxi and the driver denied our transportation because of the traffic in our location (to think that those girls were heading in a further place than ours!) that we had to experience and far worse situation. The next cab that stopped for us yelled at my sister!

Here’s the conversation.

My ate in all calmness: Manong sa _______ po.

Kuya: Ay hindi, ayoko doon.

My ate: Sige na kuya. Late na, bawal po tumanggi.

Kuya in all his red-faced-sorry assed-vein popping expression and loud voice: ALAM KONG BAWAL! WALA AKONG PAKI!

My ate barely closed the door when he began to drive off.

Tell me dear citizens of the Philippines, WHERE IS THE JUSTICE IN THAT?

I would prefer very much that he just deny giving us service but to yell at my sister in all his negative glory?! See? The jack-ass knew he was wrong and went with is impatience and arrogance to fuss us off. I’m very sorry for the language and the manner that I write this entry. What I felt after the incident was definitely… Ugh… DISGUSTED.

Buti pa yung manong na nagpaumanhin dahil gutom na siya, sige, ayos lang. Maganda naman ang pagkasabi. Masgugustohin ko na rin and sapilitang pagsasakay ng jeep ng mga 15 na tao sa isang sakayan kahit tila sardinas na ang hitsura namin. But for one who works for public service to deny you your right in the most outrageously disrespectful way?

We are all public servants and we all have equal rights. Let us exercise them with dignity and prudence if that’s not so hard to ask.

Sometimes I wonder if the street vendors who helped us with getting a taxi and comforted my sister after being verbally abused (yes, we can actually sue for verbal abuse) should have it better than tha taxi and comforted my sister after being verbally abused (yes, we can actually sue for verbal abuse) should have it better than the stuffy (I mean HEALTHY, beer bellied) taxi driver or the well to do mocking-gays who stole our ride. Then again, my sister told me that maybe what happened was a good thing.

It was a good thing in a sense that if ever the other 2 were to drive us home with such foul display of attitudes, what could have happened to us? Luckily, we walked away with just an ulcer and no more.

Still, I don’t think this is a matter not to be reckoned with. It’s ironic when I think about what happened that night and when I remember the insight that my Social Psych professor shared with us. She said and I quote “…whenever I criticize the wrong that I see in our society. I don’t think that it makes me less of a Filipino.” In fact she explained and made a clear point that because she is critical about what she observes in the mores broken that she shows that she is more concerned and loving to her country. I cannot help but agree with her. If the majority of society today would continue living in neutral ground then nothing could ever be achieved. I do not believe that most often than not people learn from their mistakes by committing more. On the other hand, two negatives may make a positive right? But I say, the more the wrongs done, the more it negates the purpose.

I was amazed at myself for keeping calm amidst our situation, usually I would already be darting glares and such, I guess the Holy Spirit was clearly working at our side, keeping me grounded. In fact, I half expected that I’d be cursing unfathomable words inside my head over and over again, but hey, I would never want to level with those who lack veneration.

I wouldn’t have minded paying extra for our cab as long as we got home safe. Then again, you cannot meter COMMON COURTESY or lack thereof.

As for the Airport taxi guy who agreed to take us home in such kind manner, thank you and bless you always. God is working with you.

And to you sirtaxiguywiththeweirdteethandloudvoicewhoyelledatmyate, you’re lucky that we didn’t get your license plate but hey, even though we didn’t see it, doesn’t mean that NO ONE DID. *looks up*

I do not and will not wish ill unto others. No. Ethics for me, Etchos for them.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

The Fame

BRIEF AND CONCISE.

This is the best way to describe this entry.

Many people ask me why I do the things I do. (Write,speak my mind, Cosplay, Photograph, Photo-Manipulate, Declaim, Orate etc...).

Here's the answer: I do them because, they make up who I am as a person. I could never deny the accusation that most of artists and whatnot do what they do for fame. I say, attention is just a bonus. Whether or not I get noticed doesn't really matter. To me, it's simply a matter of self-expression. Nothing else.

So forgive me for being such a blabber mouth and eye sore to others but I think what matters most is that people get to know who the person is behind all the make-up and loud voice and accept that the things I do, I do because, I'm simply me. Eccentric/loud/weird or whatever else you seem to call me. I am not afraid of labels because I do not believe that they exist. It's really far better off to be yourself rather than be kept hidden. I've learned the hard way that keeping too much of a low pro or being too all high and mighty will do you no good. Its simply but right to filter some things and not share every bit of detail about your personal life though no one should be close minded. In fact everyone should be sensitive and tactful enough to thing of how others could feel first. I may not have the license to say these things because I'm not what you call, "the talk of the town." But I will say these things, just to prove some points.

Being open about my interests and not being ashamed of what I do has enabled me to find such TRUE and GOOD friends. As a college girl, I thought at first that if they knew of those things, I'd be looked down upon, so to those who I have thought upon negatively, I send my apologies. And to my friends and family for being so supportive (despite my high strung comments and relentless teasing *ahem Maki and Luz*), thank you, you guys are the best. No other friends could treat me as well as you all. Thank you for keeping me grounded and for understanding how I kid around with you guys. I want you guys to know that my harsh-sarcastic jokes are just jokes. You all know how gifted you guys are. Let me be the first to tell you how lucky I am to have met you guys, I wouldn't have things any other way. I'd literally die and kill for you guys, so don't worry about anything. :3

Also, I would like to extend my thanks for those who follow, watch, like, comment and view my pages. You guys have no idea how elated you make me feel. I hope that in a way or two, I could return the favor some day. I promise to deliver better articles and artworks for you guys. :) No matter what happens, I will never let things get over my head. I will remain solid and planted firmly on the ground. So, I ask, can you guys grow with me?

I do hope so.

Don't worry, no one has bashed me or anything, but I've been hearing and reading a lot e-wars with some friends and associates. It's really heartbreaking.

For now, I won't comment and just pray that everyone will get along.